define love.

You have to feel loved, to be in love.

And when you do not give love, there won't be love.

But who can define love.

couples are like best friends, with a bit more love to spend the rest of their lives together.

best friends are like couples, with rules to abide to not cross the line to fall in love.

we crossed the line, but doubt we can make it all the way to the end.

we are half way in between.

and perhaps this is where "life-long friends" stand. 

goodnight x

Some people care too much, I think it's called love.

Never a wise decision to live together under the same roof, however it's all unexpected. 

Months, every day I try to make myself a little happier. Things are out of control and to a point it's way too over, care too much expect too much. I totally agree humans are the greediest creature of all times. Asking for more when you already have what it is the best to yourself.

Exactly because you know me very well, everything is observed. Upset, disappointed and let down. You know it, but that's it. My mind said no, my heart say yes there is still hope. And I think it's about time to let go of the one thing that is constantly breaking my heart. 

You taught me how to love, but you didn't tell me how to stop loving. So guess I will have to figure that out myself. 

xxxxxx

hut.

Been weeks since we moved into this new place. It does feel a bit different over looking the breathtaking night view of notts every night, slightly more grown up? Oh.. silly me but its all true words. Finally a home of myself and... us. Prepared for the worst yet still baffled when fighting and arguing in reality. There is never enough time, we did not have one dmc since being back, instead we had multiple arguments. I may have been overly childish and selfish which clearly makes things way worse, however swinging moods of yours do not help at all too. "People tend to forget why they fall in love and how much love they have for each other at the beginning and all left is helplessness."

no one say its easy, no one ever say it's this hard.

一直以為理所當然的一件事，原來這樣不容易。

謝謝你一直以來對我的無理取鬧作出許多的包容，可是你把我寵壞了，真的。

天地下有幾個人會願意每天晚上等對方先入睡，不管多晚明天是否要早起身體有沒有不舒服。真的謝謝你，把不可能變成可能。

現在也是時候學羰長大。

沒有人會再這樣的寵我了。

又上了一課 :)

retreat from a safe distance and throw chocolate at her

Never should you include anyone into your own plans, cause you might not be in theirs. Words to live by.

Back from the Baltic Sea, everything seem unchanged. Been away for weeks, magnificent Iceland, Copenhagen, Finland, St Petersburg and  Sweden. Oh and did I forget to mention, good old London. Relaxing trip overall with a few bits and pieces of extra highlights. 

3 weeks since I last see you and counting days I expect, visiting turned out to be a bad idea, got ditched I should say. Thought you wanted me to last night but I understand it, last minute changes huh.

Shopping all alone, no more fun, I'm done.